For With God nothing shall be impossible- Luke 1:37
Today I am going to get extremely personal with you all. So many of you ask me how, I keep a smile on my face even in the hardest of times. I continue to chase grace. I believe in it, chase it, trust it & be still in it. Trust me, I of course feel emotions because I am human, but I choose to live a positive lifestyle. How you may ask? My faith. Without my faith, I am not sure I would be able to get through this career, let alone the day. Being an actor, there is a lot of rejection and not feeling worthy enough. I definitely get the question; what does it mean to be “strong in your faith”. To me- faith is the complete trust in someone or something. I have faith in God, that all things work for the better. I trust in him and my faith is strong and dwells within my soul.
Overtime, I realized that there were things that were out of my control. I couldn’t control getting sick at an inconvenient time. I couldn’t control it raining on the day of my photoshoot. I couldn’t control the small things that would go wrong. These situations and instances are out of our hands. It wasn’t until this past year that I truly needed to rely on God for strength and peace. I went through a personal relationship break-up that was far worse than any breakup I’ve experienced. I was completely heart-broken. I felt lost, but it was then that I realized that I didn’t have to be. It was then, that I had no choice but to rely on my faith to keep me strong and able to move on with my life. This does not mean, I don’t have bad days and struggle with this way of living, but it has changed my life. Now, I don’t necessarily mean…I have to go to church every Sunday, I’m saying that I was able to trust in God. (Although, I do enjoy some Hillsong church!) I soon realized that things fall out of place, because he has a better plan for my life. This was not easy for me to understand. When I finally did, it just clicked. I noticed a lot of my everyday worries and fears disappeared. I felt like a new woman. I accepted that God put me in this season to help me grow and grow my relationship with him. Being a type A, perfectionist woman, I was constantly trying to perfect and set up my fate. I then realized that I could no longer do that to myself. I needed to rest and be still.
There were times in my life that God really worked miracles and put me in situations to lead me to the next bigger and better thing. I’ve seen situations in my career, relationships, health and even college. I am thankful that I have the relationship I have with God and that I am able to confidently say that faith is my everything. I definitely find that when I start my day off with prayer or even play my favorite Hillsong album I am off to an amazing start. I also enjoy reading my Daily Devotionals in “Jesus Calling”, by Sarah Young. I know that I will find a man that will encourage me, be inspired by it and fully love me for all that I love and all that I am.
There are times when I may look like I have it all together on Instagram, but I am a human being and sometimes I just have to laugh at the silly moments where I would take myself way too seriously. I always say laugh at yourself, it’s good for your soul. I choose to chase grace. I will continue to run after it, secure it in my soul, rest in it and believe in it with all of my heart. “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith.” (Ephesians 2:8-10)
Here are a few things that I remind myself daily and may help you stay positive and trust your fate:
- You are loved – John 3:16
- You are beautiful- Psalm 139
- You are STRONG- Psalm 28:7
- You are confident- Philippians 4:13