Happy 2020 darlings. It’s hard to believe that it is already the New Year. I have been reflecting recently, on this past year. Putting everything aside, I have learned a lot this year. I am excited to see what 2020 brings me. Being sick most of 2019, was very difficult and taught me more lessons than I’ve ever learned. I’m grateful for the ones who stayed in my life and those who didn’t. Words that stand out to me from 2019 were, fear, strength, hope, courage, faith, trust and disappointment. Words that I am putting out there for 2020 are, fun, positivity, trust, patience, dreams, compassion, understanding, and self- acceptance.
I pray that 2020 brings you health, happiness, love and lots of fun!
If I learned anything, it was that YOU are in charge of your own happiness. No amount of clothing, money, materialistic things, Gucci belts, concerts, NYFW, or relationships will bring you that happiness. It’s so important to remember that and fuel yourself with the things that bring you the most joy.
GIRL you are STRONGER than you even know. Trust me when I say this. Unfortunately, it took me too long to realize it. As most of you know, I battled a very bad case of Lyme disease. Over time, I found that my strength didn’t come from a person, a thing or a medication; it came from within. I just needed the courage to believe it. Now don’t get me wrong, all of those things are amazing and helpful to help you during tough times. Remember, you are stronger than you know!
I think this one speaks for itself. I am the type of woman who loves to give, give and give. I sometimes forget to love myself first.
EXACTLY this! This goes for friends, significant others and even relatives. It’s so hard to stop caring, but worth it for your heart in the end.
Oh man darlings, this one hits so hard. Let’s be honest, things tend to look PERFECT in our imagination and on paper. It is so important to trust the timing of your life. Whether you lay your faith in the lord or the universe. You can NOT force the timing of your life.
Let’s make 2020 the best year of our lives. We will look back and realize we grew even more.
I want to start off this post by saying, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah and New Year to all! We have been so wrapped up in shopping for gifts, who has the prettiest tree/decorations and living room garland; that we tend to forget the REAL meaning of Christmas. I wanted to share some scripture with you, that means a lot to me this Holiday season. I hope I can encourage at least one of you to find joy in the dark moments of our life. This is a real, raw and vulnerable post for me, so thank you for allowing me to be 100% Meghan. In the comments, leave a comment as to something you would like me to life up in prayer for you.
Even though it may not seem like it on my feed, and I haven’t shared too too much on my struggles- I endured a lot of hardship this past year. I struggled more than ever in my life. I hit rock bottom and lost who I was. I lost the bubbly, fun, loving and sweet woman I once was. It is important to me that I inspire at least one person with my story. I battled Lyme disease back in March of 2019 and unfortunately dealt with a lot of loss over the year. Friendships, jobs, relationships, and goals suddenly slipped away. I am not looking for sympathy, but rather to inspire those in need of faith/hope this Holiday season.
As I am sitting here, reflecting on this past year and it feels like such a blur to me. The best metaphor I can use to describe my past year is this: Last week I suffered from a minor eye scratch/infection and have been wearing my glasses for a week now. I struggle because the glasses are my old prescription. As I would drive, I noticed I had to squint and signs were SO blurry to me. Once I was able to put in my contacts again; it felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I could suddenly see again. It didn’t seem as blurry anymore and everything began to read clearer again. I know this is a cheesy metaphor, but it felt like I was looking through blurry glasses over the last year. Unfortunately, I suffered from illness majority of the year and missed out on opportunities, jobs, family functions, and many more important life moments. BUT, I also found that I was able to accomplish some major goals for my business and made beautiful memories. I hit goals I DREAMT of reaching for the blog. I am SO BLESSED. To be honest, those accomplishments mean that much more to me because I reached them while being very ill.
In 2019, God really put in a very uncomfortable place in my life. But, I have a beautiful home and so much love. I am still thankful for this difficult season and what I went through. It has opened my eyes to life and I am FINALLY starting to feel alive again. I still have bad days and I don’t feel amazing, but I LIVE and LOVE life as much as I can. If you are struggling and are battling chronic illness, I wanted to let you know that you can do anything your heart wants. I reached TREMENDOUS milestones, from doctors offices, hospital beds and visits. I never gave up and that’s what means the most to me. I did not allow the illness to win. This year I have relied heavily on my faith and my family/ loved ones to carry me through. If you do not have a family or friends; count me as one.
I have grown closer to the lord and I wanted to share more of my faith with you darlings. I’m grateful for every single one of you here and pray for you all.
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
♡ I don’t know who needs to hear this this Christmas, but there is hope. Have faith that god is guiding you to your final destination. If you are hurting, if you are ill, if you are heartbroken, If you suffer from mental illness, fear the future, feel alone and lost- please know you are not alone. You are never alone. I am sharing some of my favorite verses of hope in the second picture. I hope you have a blessed Holiday season, no matter what you celebrate, who you celebrate with and where you are. Just know I pray peace and health on every single one of you.♡
WOW! Major decor update alert here at #yourdarlinghome . We have officially been moved in for two months. I can hardly believe that two months have gone by already. I am LOVING the opportunity to share with you our updated home decor living room + home office. I have been working so hard to get everything set and finished. It took me FOREVER to find the perfect living room couch pillows. No joke- it took me a month to find the right ones. I will link everything below for ya’ll. As always, you can always shop everything you see- in the liketoknow.it app or click the shop tab in the menu up top! Thanks for tuning in and I hope ya’ll love our completed living room. It’s been so much fun decorating. I can’t wait to see it decorated for the Holidays.
It has officially been one week since we moved in to our new home! Mr. Darling and I are completly ecstatic and proud of our new place. I am so excited to share with you the details, of our living room thus far. As we add more things, I will share them on the blog. For now, this is what we have completed. I LOVE our bright and open space that is so cozy and a place we can call home. So excited for our new beginning here in the darling home. I will be adding new things to the blog weekly. I look forward to decorating and adding the final touches to our home. It has been a dream of mine to create a space like this and design everything the way I wanted it to be. I feel so grateful and blessed for what God has given me. We need something for over the couch. Any suggesstions?Everything is linked and I look forward to you following along.
We wanted to keep the living room neutral with pops of grey and beige. It was so much to see our living room transform into this neutral-toned space. The coffee table is VERY affordable and $100. It is the perfect rustic grey with a darker grey tabletop. The flower arrangements were made by moi. It honestly was a random after-thought. The table needed something to make the room pop and I had trouble finding an arrangement I wanted. I knew the exact colors I wanted and decided to take it into my own hands and make my own. Tutorial on that, will be coming shortly. It took me about ten minutes to make. The couch is the perfect size for us and the neutral tones were perfect for our aesthetic. Would you believe me if I told you the couch was under $600? The pillows came with the couch, except for the HOME pillow. I can’t link that, but found it in HOMESENSE. The tray and tic-tac toe board made the perfect accents for the table. Clearly, I love anything rustic! The wall clock was one of the FIRST decor items I picked up from TJMAXX. I am unable to find it online, but linked a similar one here. The blanket ladder was a perfect idea for us to store our cozy pom blankets. Mr. Darling has the sectional side of the couch, so clearly I needed something for my feet. I fell in LOVE with this pouf. Last but not least, is the rug. I knew EXACTLY the rug I wanted for my home. It fit perfectly and we are loving the pop of grey.
I loved making my own floral arrangement. A tutorial will be coming soon.
As promised, here is a complete guide to traveling to Kennebunkport, Maine. Last year was our first time visiting this unique and charming town. Home of the LOBSTER and salty ocean water taffy, it quickly became a home in our hearts. We come every single summer and it has become our yearly summer tradition. Every year that we visit, we find new things to see, places to stay and things to explore. Kennebunkport is a small, tourist-driven, darling and quaint town. We had a beautiful weekend and are so sad to be back in New York. We wish we could have stayed there even longer! We look forward to returning every year and continuing to make new memories; eventually making it a tradition with our children and family one day. We were fortunate to have stayed at two different hotels in Kennebunkport and I will be sharing all of the details below. There is SO much information to share and I will be answering all of your questions here. Whether you are traveling for a weekend get-away or a week long stay- there will always be something to do in this beautifully scenic town. Taylor and I spent four full days in Kennebunkport and found that it was the perfect amount of time, to see and do everything we wanted to. This is one of my most memorable trips and I look forward to visiting again next year.
Where To Stay?
THE YACHTSMAN HOTEL & MARINA CLUB
As soon as we stepped foot into our private and quaint room, we felt serene, relaxed and could feel the ocean breeze drifting in. The room is vibrant, fun and filled with all the vacation essentials. Upon arriving, we were greeted by Casey, who was beyond accommodating and made our stay exceed our expectations. The bright white walls and pineapple headboard lifted our spirits and certainly put us immediately into, “vacation-mode.” The room is fully equipped with tv, fridge, full sized bed, sliding door, which leads to a small backyard with Adirondack chairs to lounge in and watch the boats go by.
The headboard was probably my favorite part of the room.
The Yachtsman has some wonderful accommodations and gives off the perfect beach vacation charm. The pool is in a separate, peaceful area from the resort and literally floats in the harbor! It is SUCH a cool experience, you feel like you’re floating on a boat. They have comfy beanbag chairs to lounge on. One of my favorite things that the Yachtsman offers, are complimentary bikes to ride into town. Town is about a mile or so to walk. We found the location to be perfect! I loved that the Yachtsman was close to town, but still slightly secluded; so you have more of a peaceful and serene experience. With the backyard feature and small pool- this hotel is children and couple friendly. Every morning, Mr. Darling walked down to the offices/lobby to grab a cup of fresh coffee from their adorable coffee bar. We truly loved every moment of our stay and certainly will be back. They definitely have made this hotel family oriented and a wonderful place to make long-lasting memories. Another thing that I wanted to mention, is that KRC hotels offers complimentary kayaks for all guests at the marina, which is located next door to The Yachtsman!
We, overall, had an AMAZING stay at The Yachtsman. They were constantly going above and beyond to make our stay perfect and we thought they had so many wonderful accommodations. From pastry deliveries right to your door every morning, to an outdoor patio and your own small backyard; we were beyond pleased with our experience there. We definitely felt that breezy feel of freedom and have now found our new getaway spot.
The Boathouse Waterfront Hotel
The Boathouse is also owned by KRC hotels and we stayed here for our last night in Kennebunkport. One of the amazing features of the hotel is the fact that you can take steps out of the hotel and be right in the center of Dock Square in the town of Kennebunkport. I think this hotel has the absolute best VIEWS of Kennebunkport (especially from room 206). Our room had its very own private balcony overlooking the bridge and Kennebunk river. This waterfront hotel offers a prime in house seafood restaurant. It is one of our favorite spots to eat. If you are on the hunt for a great waterside hotel, then this is it. The views are incomparable to anything you will find in town.
This view from our balcony was incredible!
What to do
When it comes to things to do, Kennebunkport is filled with beaches, gift shops and sightseeing tours.
You must visit the Kennebunkport Beaches. The water is absolutely beautiful and the surrounding homes are so elegant and charming to see. We visited Gooch’s Beach, which was a few miles (maybe 3 if that) from our hotel room.
Trolley Tour- This was a fun 45 minute, narrated tour all throughout Kennebunkport. The views they show you are just incredible. This was so relaxing, as well as interesting to get an entire historic view of the town. It is $18 per adult.
Horse & Carriage Ride- I’m not entirely sure how much this would have been, but it looked so lovely.
Coastal Maine Scooter Rental: We did this last trip and it was our FAVORITE thing to do there. We rode along the shore and all through out town. It was a little too cold and windy this trip to rent. Next trip, we will for sure! If you have a few extra minutes in your day, you should ride the scooter to Saint Anne’s Cathedral church. The architecture was absolutely exquisite. ( To rent a scooter- 207-204-0734)
Dock Square Shopping: This is the best spot to shop for all things touristy. From sea salt water taffy to baseball hats and the BEST syrup; they have TONS of shopping in the square. One of our favorite stores is “Mountain Tops.” They have the best selection of sweatshirts and tees. This is where Mr. Darling and I bought our matching sweatshirts. Mr. Darling also LOVES the “Candy Man.” They may or may not have chocolate covered twinkies.
Boat Tours- It was a little too chilly this trip to go on the whale watching or lobster tour. I have heard wonderful things about both. I believe it is around $65 per person. The town offered numerous types of tours. All of the boat tours can be purchased, at the Marina next to Maxim’s Desserts! We didn’t have the chance to do a boat tour, but everyone raved over the whale-watching tour. If you wanted to skip the tour, you could always head to the bridge and take a walk alongside the Marina.
Where To Eat
There are numerous restaurants located in Kennebunkport, but here is a list of my favorites!
We ate at The Burleigh for dinner to celebrate Mr. Darling’s birthday. As soon as we arrived, they greeted us with champagne to toast his special celebration. The food was astounding. We ordered a few appetizers and Taylor raved over the clams. As you know, Kennebunk is known for its seafood, especially the lobster. I ordered the sirloin and it was cooked to perfection. Tender with a crisp outer layer, it was served with some of the BEST French fries I’ve had. If you are looking for a romantic evening, then the Burleigh, would make a lovely evening for two. They offer outdoor, as well as indoor seating.
Mr. Darling should write this section of the blog post because he ate enough dessert for the both of us. I will share a few of his favorite spots!
Maxim Desserts- This is a little food truck located in Dock Square. Hands down the BEST ice cream you will EVER have. The blueberry cheesecake is his fave. You can find this at 2 Harbor Lane!
Candy Man- They have amazing fudge and chocolate covered twinkies. Definitely a favorite of Mr. Darlings!
Satellite Donuts- Located at 4 Spring Street, in the heart of Kennebunkport Village. These are probably some of the best donuts you will ever consume. Taylor’s favorite are the strawberry sprinkled donuts.
So many of you have been asking me for the best spots to take Instagram-worthy shots. Here are some of my FAVORITE spots!
The Yachtsman Hotel & Marina Pool – Best pool spot
This cafe is ADORABLE. The Tiffany blue decor and the pickup truck filled with flowers, makes the perfect Instagram spot. Our favorite spot was the “You’re my everything” photo wall! Mr. Darling and I loved this hidden gem in Wells, Maine! It is about an 8 minute drive from town.
Take a shot on the Kennebunk bridge or on the rooftop of the Boathouse hotel, for the perfect sunset shot!
Thank you all for following along on our Kennebunkport journey. I hope this travel guide was resourceful and helpful for your planning needs. Thank you to KRC hotels for sponsoring our incredible stay. Of course all opinions are my own! We look forward to our next stay! Of course, feel free to reach out, if you have any questions!
This post is going to be very real, emotional and honest. I have endured some of the hardest months of my entire life, but also have had some of the BEST. I launched my own brand, I am currently working with brands I LOVE and working in a career that I ABSOLUTELY love. I also have been extremely unhealthy, emotional and visited more doctors with names I cannot even remember. I have not been on an audition or sung since Christmas. There have been so many amazing highlights, but also living with so many unknowns, fears and struggles. On social media we only see a small percentage of someone’s life. We rarely get the opportunity to see the WHOLE picture. I am not here to ask for pity, but rather here to inspire, share light and positivity; that even in the darkest of days we can achieve great things.
Where I’ve Been?
I have received more DMs than I thought, asking where Ive been? Why I am not in NYC everyday? Why they don’t see me performing or auditioning anymore? Unfortunately due to the circumstances of my health, it was very important that I took a break to focus on healing, getting well so that I may continue to perform. I need to get to the root of what has been causing my illnesses and what I need to do to feel 100% myself again. There have been so many disappointments and frustrating days where I wanted to give up. Days I felt that I wasn’t enough, that I couldn’t do my try-on hauls. But, You know what? That is a SILLY way to think. I decided to re-center myself, stop focussing on the what-ifs and live in the present. I decided to fully let go and give my life to god. To allow God to guide me, hold my hand and lead me where I belong. Once I realized that, I was able to find happiness and joys in the small things. I started to have faith and I started to find ways to cope with my illness. I also realized that God has me exactly where I need to be. If I was not home sick and I was away traveling doing a show; who knows if I would have had the time to start my line? For that, I am grateful.
There are many things that have been helping me to cope with my struggles such as Himalayan Salt Caves, cryotherapy, Reiki, board games and puzzles (lot’s of them), CBD oil (huge advocate of this), Vitamin D and B12, my family, Taylor, friends, my blog, my line, and most importantly Jesus. I recently joined a new church (Genesis LI) and I LOVE it. I feel at home, I have found a community that supports me, is there for me and has welcomed me with open arms. These things worked for me and they are not for everyone. I can only hope that if you are struggling you can find things that help you cope with whatever you are dealing with.
Wow….that is all I can say. I woke up one day from a dream of my Grandma speaking to me. She said, “Floral and scrunchies” in the dream. I remember calling my mom screaming, “Scrunchies! That’s what I am going to do! Scrunchies!” I felt that it was a sign from above and what I needed to do. I was so sick and pushed myself to make it happen. I stayed up for days designing, creating, contacting the right people to help me make my vision come to life. Last week, I achieved one of my lifelong goals and dreams. With the major help of my mom, Taylor, Melissa and Ciara; this was possible. It happened! I launched SHOPYDS ! We sold out of a pattern in just 7 hours. It was so cool and it made me feel so grateful and blessed for the opportunity. God has opened a door I PRAYED for. It was exactly what I needed in my life. And he knew that.
Where am I going?
I am continuing on the path of healing, attending doctor visits, creating, blogging, working and most importantly living. It truly is SO important to think mind over body. The more I tell myself I can, I actually can. It may not be easy, and it may be SO hard, but in the end I will look back and be stronger because of what I went through. This has all made me so appreciative of even the small things. I will NEVER take anything for granted and I want to live life not in fear, but in gratitude, excitement and adventure. I hope this inspires you to continue on your path and to not give up. I know I will be back up on that stage singing, sharing my light and dancing until I drop. Until then, I will continue to live.