I want to start off this post by saying, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah and New Year to all! We have been so wrapped up in shopping for gifts, who has the prettiest tree/decorations and living room garland; that we tend to forget the REAL meaning of Christmas. I wanted to share some scripture with you, that means a lot to me this Holiday season. I hope I can encourage at least one of you to find joy in the dark moments of our life. This is a real, raw and vulnerable post for me, so thank you for allowing me to be 100% Meghan. In the comments, leave a comment as to something you would like me to life up in prayer for you.
Even though it may not seem like it on my feed, and I haven’t shared too too much on my struggles- I endured a lot of hardship this past year. I struggled more than ever in my life. I hit rock bottom and lost who I was. I lost the bubbly, fun, loving and sweet woman I once was. It is important to me that I inspire at least one person with my story. I battled Lyme disease back in March of 2019 and unfortunately dealt with a lot of loss over the year. Friendships, jobs, relationships, and goals suddenly slipped away. I am not looking for sympathy, but rather to inspire those in need of faith/hope this Holiday season.
As I am sitting here, reflecting on this past year and it feels like such a blur to me. The best metaphor I can use to describe my past year is this: Last week I suffered from a minor eye scratch/infection and have been wearing my glasses for a week now. I struggle because the glasses are my old prescription. As I would drive, I noticed I had to squint and signs were SO blurry to me. Once I was able to put in my contacts again; it felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I could suddenly see again. It didn’t seem as blurry anymore and everything began to read clearer again. I know this is a cheesy metaphor, but it felt like I was looking through blurry glasses over the last year. Unfortunately, I suffered from illness majority of the year and missed out on opportunities, jobs, family functions, and many more important life moments. BUT, I also found that I was able to accomplish some major goals for my business and made beautiful memories. I hit goals I DREAMT of reaching for the blog. I am SO BLESSED. To be honest, those accomplishments mean that much more to me because I reached them while being very ill.
In 2019, God really put in a very uncomfortable place in my life. But, I have a beautiful home and so much love. I am still thankful for this difficult season and what I went through. It has opened my eyes to life and I am FINALLY starting to feel alive again. I still have bad days and I don’t feel amazing, but I LIVE and LOVE life as much as I can. If you are struggling and are battling chronic illness, I wanted to let you know that you can do anything your heart wants. I reached TREMENDOUS milestones, from doctors offices, hospital beds and visits. I never gave up and that’s what means the most to me. I did not allow the illness to win. This year I have relied heavily on my faith and my family/ loved ones to carry me through. If you do not have a family or friends; count me as one.
I have grown closer to the lord and I wanted to share more of my faith with you darlings. I’m grateful for every single one of you here and pray for you all.
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
♡ I don’t know who needs to hear this this Christmas, but there is hope. Have faith that god is guiding you to your final destination. If you are hurting, if you are ill, if you are heartbroken, If you suffer from mental illness, fear the future, feel alone and lost- please know you are not alone. You are never alone. I am sharing some of my favorite verses of hope in the second picture. I hope you have a blessed Holiday season, no matter what you celebrate, who you celebrate with and where you are. Just know I pray peace and health on every single one of you.♡
Merry Christmas from our darling home to yours <3